So i said i wasn't going to let it bother me, but i am really feeling shitty about my birthday. I thought that i would be ok about being alone on my special day (or is that your wedding day? oh well) but i guess i am not an adult and i can't get over it. Why do i feel like i am such a child? I feel like the person that says "fuck my birthday!" but then secretly hopes that people will throw you a party and that everyone will make a big deal about it. My parents haven't even sent me a birthday card. I guess i should have known, because they didn't send a christmas card or presents either. Oh well. I guess that i am really feeling alone today. Poor me.